is it love?

AH! I don't really know what love is and I don't know am I in love or not ,wahahaha

is it a feeling that makes you nervous? comfortable when you're with him/her? don't want to lose him/her? want to sacrifice for his/her happiness? feel jealous if he/she is very close with others? thinking about him/her all the time? or it's just an ordinary feeling??

I'm so confused so I asked mr.google *very jobless* then I found this

TADAAAAAAAAAA! now I got the answer HAHAHAHA

"Love itself is a universal experience. Yet, every individual occurrence - while perhaps bound by a common thread - seems absolutely unique. Love is what love is! To everyone it expresses itself differently."

this is a...related song from Jaeson Ma ft. Bruno Mars - love

Now Hollywood wants to make you think they know what love is.
But I'm a tell you what true love is.
Love is not what you see in the movies.
Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene
you know what I mean? I'm telling you right now, true love is sacrifice.
Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself
Love is selfless not selfish. Love is God and God is love.
Love is when you lay down your life for another
Whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister
Its even laying down your life for your enemies,
That's unthinkable, but think about that
Love is true
Think.

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast
It is not proud. Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs
You see love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres
Love never fails. Love is everlasting
Its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time
Love is the only thing that will last when you die
But ask the question why? Do you have love?

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

There is no greater love than this than he who lays down his life for his friends
Now are you willing to lay down your life for your friends?
You're probably willing to lay down your life for your mother
your father, or your best friends
But are you willing to lay down your life for even those that hate you?
I'm going to tell you who did that
The definition of love is Jesus Christ. He is love
The nails in his hands, the thorns in his brow
Hanging on a cross for your sin my sins
That is love he died for you and me while we still hated him
That is love
God is true love, and if you don't know this love
Now is the time to know, perfect love

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love
(repeat)

status

these are my status on facebook,I tried this app and it's so cuteeee http://apps.facebook.com/mystatusinyear/

I love you..

a sad letter,from mom and dad

p.s : don't forget to prepare a box of tissue before you watch it!

first time

I had a great day with my friends,felt so happy

yesterday,after the stressful exam over,we went ice-skating,beh ! that was my first time ice-skating since I was born ckckck pitiful

I was so "katrok",like wong deso went to the city cos I couldn't walk using that skating shoes and didn't know how to play.

I was afraid like hell if I fell then sprained my finger again like as before

Some of my friends taught me,sometimes they scared me that they would push me also left me in the middle of the field,beeeeeeeeeeh so scary!

But I really2 thanks to them cos patiently taught me hahahaa

Oh,btw I'll promise to teach you all how to jump and do the spiral move if I recovered from my amnesia HUAKAKAKAKA!

here some photos that we took

new nice songs

Bruno mars - grenade

love all his songs,greaaaaat,he is so UH!-MA!-ZING!

michael buble - hollywood

btw,why there's so many bieber's fans that hate buble,they're too much,don't take it seriously maaan!

really really love this song

SNSD - my bestfriend

english lyric :

Taeyeon – Even though we argued a little yesterday

Today, we laugh and hug, embrace each other

Alright. Let’s make a promise

You are my best friend

Jessica – Even if your worry may seem trivial

Don’t hold it in

But share it with each other. Promise me one more time

Yoona – When you laugh, I’m happy too

Yuri – When you’re sad, my eyes tear up.

(all) There is only one of you in this world my friend

You’re my joy and my soul

I’ll continue to treasure our importance

I swear to God

I love you my friend

Jessica/Tiffany – I’ll be your strength

I’ll always by your best friend

Sunny – If you find a good movie, a song,

Or a person(guy), make sure to let share it with each other

Let’s make a promise together

Seohyun – Let’s not be stingy and

Buy each other meals

Let’s make a promise with our finger

Hyoyeon – For me, when you’re not here, I really feel lonely

Sooyoung – For me, when you’re sick, I can’t sleep. I worry about you

(all) There is only one of you in this world my friend

You’re my joy and my soul

I’ll continue to treasure our importance

I swear to God I love you my friend

You’re my life’s present my friend You’re my jewel.

My miracle I’ll protect my appreciative heart

Once again, I swear to God I love you my friend

Tiffany – With faith and holding hands,

no matter what I won’t be afraid

Sica – The word friendship may sound awkward,

but I think that word was created

To describe us.

Seohyun – my friend

(all) There is only one of you in this world my friend

You’re my joy and my soul

I’ll continue to treasure our importance

I swear to God

I love you my friend

You’re my life’s present my friend

You’re my jewel.

My miracle I’ll protect my appreciative heart

Once again, I swear to God

I love you my friend

We make pretty nicknames for each other and play around

Sometimes, we share our cool clothes

You’re number one in my speed dial.

You’ll always be my best friend

Forever you’re my friend

You’re my only one, my friend

Forever you’re my friend

You’re my only one, my friend

Hey, aren’t you my friend?

Maerong (teasing)

Unnie Good night

own made video

hannah montana - true friend

We sign our cards and letters BFF
You've got a million ways to make me laugh
You're lookin' out for me, you've got my back
So good to have you around

You know the secrets I could never tell
And when I'm quiet you break through my shell
Don't feel the need to do a rebel yell
'Cause you keep my feet on the ground

You're a true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside when something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend

You don't get angry when I change the plans
Somehow you're never out of second chances
Won't say "I told you" when I'm wrong again
I'm so lucky that I've found

A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside when something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again

True friends will go to the ends of the earth
Till they find the things you need
Friends hang on through the ups and the downs
Cause they've got someone to believe in

A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside when something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
No need to pretend
You're a true friend

You're a true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside when something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend

You're a true friend
You're a true friend

what are in my mind right now

these are the words that appear in my mind right now...

=> I'm the most useless person in this world

=> I can't make my parents proud of me

=> I'm a selfish person

=> I'm the most foolish person

=> I easily jealous

=> I'm a coward

=> I'm lazy

=> I'm an inconsistent person

=> I always wasting my time with the useless thing

=> I think,all my friends have changed their way of thinking,but only me that haven't changed

=> I'm too childish

but I never regret why I was born in this world ,cause I have my family and friends that always love and support me ! hehehe :]

Thanks God for giving me everything

I will try to become a better person !

anyway,I'm very curious about my future,like...who will be my boyfriend?who will be my husband?what will I be,really become a dentist? and blablabla hahahahaha

oohhh I also curious with keefe's (my brother) face in the future, will his like changmin's?kekekekekekekekeke *sounds pervy,eh?*

*for those who don't know who is changmin*

bye~

Remembering

Haiii!!! Gw udah bebas ! US,UN,praktek,tes UNI..semuanya udah selesai!! Akhiiiirrrnnnnyaaaa!! Tinggal nunggu hari senen (tgl 26) aja ,pengumuman kelulusan, gw berharap angkatan taon ini lulus 100%, amin .

gilaaaa....ga nyangka udah mau lulus,cepet bgt,wuaaahh

dulu kayanya gw baru masuk kelas 10 sekarang udah slesai wah wah wah

ok,cerita" ah tentang dulu waktu masuk SMA sampe skrg

mos:

dulu pertama masuk SMA ..di mos,di mosnya ga terlalu aneh" ,cuma kaya games" aja.Trus di suruh minta ttd senior sama ttd anggota osis.Ada tuh 1 anggota osis yg agak rese,ga mau ngasih ttdnya pdhl tinggal 1 lg smua ttd lengkaaappp! Setelah agak lama gw minta akhirnya dikasih juga tu ttd *aah serasa artis aja si dia*,dikasihnya juga dgn terpaksa,katanya gw kasian,muka gw memelas gt *pitiful maksudnya?* *yah mungkin muka gw emg ud gini dari sononya* ahahaha

hard days:

trus abis mos ada tes IQ gt, buat nentuin masuk IPA ato IPS. Trus kita di srh pilih juga minatnya ke IPA ato IPS *gw pilih IPA* Setelah tes n hasilnya gw masuk IPS,reaksi gw Cuma oohh…. Tp reaksi nyokap gw super beda,nyokap gw bener” ga terima gt,ngoceh” katanya “masa depan anak itu tuh gak ditentuin dari tes IQ! Sekolah tuh ga bias nentuin ! masa mau masuk kedokteran sama udah pilih minat di IPA di masukkinnya ke IPS si? “

Besokkannya nyokap gw langsung dateng ke sekolah,protes sama kepala sekolah,minta gw di pindahin ke IPA, nyokap gw berkali-kali ngomong ke kepala sekolah, gw jg harus bulak balik konsultasi ke guru BK ttg masa depan yang gw pilih *ribet bgt deh*. Gw udah pasrah aja + nangis” ,terserah boleh pindah ato enggak.Trus akhirnya…gw bisa pindah asal gw bisa janji nilainya bakal bagus di IPA,kalo jelek dipindahin lg ke IPS. Oh iya, waktu proses pemindahan gw ke IPA,gw sempet belajar di IPS seminggu. Gila pelajaran IPS yg namanya sejarah sama ekonomi itu tuh super ngebosenin !

IPA:

Yeah !! akhirnya gw bisa masuk di IPA ! *congrats to myself*

Ternyata tuh yg mau pindah kayak gw ada 10 orangan ,jd dibagi” gt, ada yg masuk IPA 1,IPA 2 sm IPA 3 …

Gw masuk di IPA 1 ,gw masuk pas pertengahan pelajaran gt *kayaknya lg pelajaran fisika Mr. Daniel losong* . Di IPA 1 ga ada anak yg gw kenal,paling Cuma Cindy a.k.a cinddq, kenal gara” dulu SMPnya di Jubilee jg , itu aja ga kenal deket banget, cuma sekedar tau. Trus gw duduk di sebelah cinddq karena bangku kosong Cuma ada di sebelah dia.

Tiap hari si cinddq ngajak ngobrol gw terus *emg bawel ya dia* gw Cuma jwb iya sm hooh, ato ga gw Cuma senyum.*gw masih malu-malu* ahahahaha

p.s : I feel so happy , lucky or what *I can't expressed it by words* that I can know and meet a person like her, maybe I’m the luckiest person, thanks God !

Intensif :

Bulan desember,abis mid test,dibagi lagi kelasnya jadi intensif sama reguler.Syarat masuk intensif itu gak boleh ada nilai yang fail sama rata” harus di atas 7-8. *intensif itu program sks,kita bisa lulus dlm 2 taon* . Semuanya udah pada sedih” aja tuh,takut pisah dari temen” deketnya . Termasuk gw, gw super sedih takut ga sekelas sm si cinddq lg, gw udah pesimis aja ga bisa msk intensif, kalo gw yakin cinddq pasti msk,secara dia pinter gt... Pengumuman siapa aja yg masuk intensif di tempel di depan kelas gt, gw super deg-degan ngeliatnya..pas gw liat wuih ! ada nama cinddq,tp kok ga ada nama gw,..trus gw liat lg smp agak bawah,ternyata ada nama gw! Yeeeeaaaahhhh !!! kita masuk ! seneeennnggg bannngggeeeettt!!

Kelas intensif penuh banget,sesek,berisik..kira” ada 40 orangan gt. Bayangin 40 orang dikumpulin dlm 1 kelas yg ga gt gede, smuanya ngobrol,guru Cuma 1 ngoceh” gak ada yg dengerin,bener” kayak pasar deh. Bener” gak bisa konsen belajar,beehh..katanya intensif tp masa belajar gak bisa konsen, gimana mo cepet” selesain materi.

Akhirnya, kelas intensif di bagi jadi A & B .. semua pada gak mau pisah lg,katanya udah enak temen”nya . Pada nangis”an , bener” gak mau di pisah, pada ngomong lagi ke kepala sekolah biar gak di pisah. Kata kpl sklh harus tetep di pisah tp temen”nya boleh pilih sendiri + harus seimbang jumlahnya.

Gw masuk di intensif A, sekelas lg sm cinddq,wooohoooww… di intensif A anak cowonya Cuma ada 4 *malah mungkin Cuma 1* ,cewe 16,wuoooww,raja minyak deh tuh cowo. Int A bener” kompak,tiap bulan pesen kue ultah ngerayain yg ultah bulan itu. Dari pertama x gw masuk sekolah,gw blm pernah dpt kelas yg sekompak itu,mungkin karena kebanyakan cewe kali ya. Kalo int B bener” kebalikannya int A, anak”nya kurang kompak, bikin grup masing” gt…

Karena sesuatu masalah yang kurang jelas, int A sama int B, anak”nya di acak..kita semua pd gak mau di acak, trus nangis”an lagi deh.. sampe bulak balik ngomong ke kepala sekolah, tapi tetep aja gak boleh gak di acak. Akhirnya, kita terima aja, katanya walaupun gak sekelas lagi tapi kita tetep bisa ngobrol” n kita tetep int A yg kompak.

Gw tetep masuk di int A n gw sekelas sm cinddq *lageee* ahahaha ahay la~… pertama” gw ngerasa kelasnya gak asik, ga ngerti jokesnya int B, tp lama-kelamaan mulai kebiasa lah. Kelasnya lumayan asik juga gara” ada Adit *dulu di int B * yg suka ngelawak. Abis itu kelasnya udah gak di pecah” ato di acak” lagi smp sekarang.

UN, US, Praktek :

UN itu ujian yg paling ditakutin sm anak sklh . Tiap hari harus pulang sore buat pendalaman UN. Pulang sekolah langsung ngeles sampe malem. Tiap hari gitu” terus. Harus bener” rajin kalo mo lulus. Ujian praktek itu seminggu setelah UN. US itu abis praktek. USnya ada sejarah, gila gw belom pernah bljr sejarah, tiba” di suruh belajar dari kelas 1- 3. Beeeeehhhhh ….

Tgl 26 pengumuman UN , tgl 30 ada outbound gt , tgl 22 Mei ada graduation. Abis itu udah gak ketemu temen” lg deh…sedih~ sedih ~

semoga kita semua bisa berhasil di future deh! semoga jalan yg kita pilih itu jalan yg terbaik buat masa depan kita, hehehe

oh iya waktu kemaren gw pulang kampung ke FS , gw liat" comment,tiba" ketemu ini

"hipotesis maha hebat ngeng2 : vibie loves jae,jae loves his fans=jae loves vibiee"

bye ~

dreams..

hey hey hey!!

I'm back!!

Gw mo crita crita dikit ah~

Akhir akhir ini gw sering mimpi aneh,gak sering jg si baru 2 x tapi jaraknya cuma bbrp hari doang

Gw gak critain secara detail mimpinya tp gw ksh tau sekilas aja deh

hari sabtu : gw mimpiin seseorang yg gak pernah gw mimpiin sebelumnya dan isi mimpinya tuh super duper aneh,cheesy,crazy,oowww...enggak banget deh pokoknya

hari ini : tadi siang gw tidur trus gw mimpi sesuatu yang bikin gw nangis ,baru x ini gw mimpi sampe nangis beneran,bukan dalem mimpi loh..nangisnya,beneran!! ,*ato waktu kecil pernah ya?*, levvvai banget lagi nangisnya sampe terisak isak sampe keluar air mata sampe nyokap gw bangunin trus nanya "bi,bi?mimpi ya?" . Sepertinya isi mimpi gw itu isi hati gw yg udah lama gw pendam dan meluap dalam bentuk mimpi *ciee pubz bahasanya*

Jadi dari mimpi mimpi gw,sekarang gw dapet kesimpulan kalo mimpi itu adalah isi hati yang gak kita ketahui + isi hati yang kita pendam

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Oh iya..tadi gw foto buat yearbook loh..

fotonya di musium fatahilah gt pake gaya vintage hahahaha

Seru deh + asik bisa jalan jalan sekelas hahaha

Trus tadi gw makeup-an+pake baju feminim,untuk ke-2 kalinya gw makeup-an*pertama x waktu umur 4 taon*dan untuk pertama kalinya gw pake baju terbuka kaya tadi !pokoknya hari ini beh banget deh. Oh iya lagi..thanks to aten juju mimi cunsa yang udah dandanin gw hahahahahaha

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